tHoUgHts Of tHe DaY

wOoo! long time no blog le!

2007-05-16T19:21:00.000+08:00

Haha harlow dear diary,

Long time long time never come in blog le..been very busy and finding a new direction. Well, i finally got a job le. Though it is not very well paid, it's still better than no income haha..

Hmm, juz back from genting last week with my mum, grandma and mum's sister. :P

I am juz there to carry luggages >"< but well, overall it's still not bad, free food and drinks haha.

Today is my 2nd day at work, I got 2 calls from 2 companies asking me for interviews >"< wat a time.. Anyway I trying to apply no pay leave to go for interviews..Haiz, hope they pay me good enough for me to change haha coz I am currently bonded to job agency then gotta pay penalty if I quit now >"<

Life is quite unpredictable and full of uncertainties..I am so lost in my future, career and relationship. Anyway, I will do my best now and spend my every second to the fullest if possible.

Hee, once I got $$ and settled my loans and bills, I'm gonna get a digicam so that I can upload mine stuffs here as a start!

Ok, gtg, bye bye!

:P

Soomething i saw ^^

2005-07-03T16:20:00.000+08:00

"Getting stronger:
Growth is never easy.
I heard in Korea there was one man who reached (korean) 1kyu after replaying 10 kibo (kifu).
Everyone has their own rate of growth, take your time.
Your words and actions are mirrors of your strength, observe~
Real baduk power = reading power. Read many variations 100 moves ahead and take your place among the legends.
Since the above is unreasonable: I suggest, focus on flow of the stones and movement and framework.
Treat a kibo like a beautiful stream, and just observe how it flows....

more later."

Settle down...

2005-02-16T21:24:00.000+08:00

hi all ^^
time to settle down to study liao :S
i just can't get the momentum going...haiz...after blogging, i think i go bath then start work le. Tomolo is fluid quiz and i haben study @@"
but duno why just feel kinda lost and tired...been burning my brain cells with all the matters around me.

feeling a little sick too but keep suppressing it by drinking lots and lots of H2O.
very blank now....duno wat to say....
i think just end here ba...
take carez everyone ^^

School~

2005-01-10T09:53:00.000+08:00

ok, school started again and i just finished my first tutorial(now in LWN library). So bored coz i did all my tutorials(wahaha) and kinda boring so i studied my notes. It is good too meaning i haf no difficulty in the tut.

Chinese New Year is coming and it is time to busy for the SRJC LD again and i hope everyone is still aware of it lol...ECA recruitment is here too and kinda busy wif the JC stuffs and i think i can cope wif my school work.

Everyone is at IA now and hope they r doing fine ^^. I hafta work hard now else my IA will be gone @@"

okok time to go off. Seeya guys~

:P

:P

2004-11-11T02:26:00.000+08:00

Suddenly feel like posting this song here hehe....
nothing much today so welll...
just study and study....
1 more day to next paper....

gl hf to me~

痴心绝对 ("爱上痞子男"片头曲)

想用一杯Latte把你灌醉好让你能多爱我一点

暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉

早有人陪的你永远不会

看见你和他在我面前证明我的爱只是愚昧

你不懂我的那些憔悴是你永远不曾过的体会

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切

你又狠狠逼退我的防备静静关上门来默数我的泪

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天

直到那一天你会发现真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

曾经我以为我自己会后悔不想爱的太多痴心绝对

为你落第一滴泪为你做任何改变

也唤不回你对我的坚决

半条命

2004-11-05T04:14:00.000+08:00

DAMN PISS NOW!!! F**K man...this is the 3rd time i writing this f**king blog...
i was saying i very sianz that my first blog, i try to write in chinese and when i finish writting it, when i am about to post, the whole chunk gonez~
and that goes for my 2nd time too!! dmn blogspot, i curse u~~!!will cut to the shortest this time...
today 2 paper, damn tiring, slept about 1 hour during my 2nd paper. Papers are difficult. Piss with life and NTU. Everything just shitty and that goes for the people.

Watched 8 miles recently and like the cool dude inside.

gotta go back to do tut and study...
take carez and cya~
(bless me this time that an post)

down...down..down..........

2004-10-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

harlow everyone...
today is the 13th of oct liao...in abt 2 more weeks, will be my exam le. haiz, suddenly feel very down haha,just now my ex come talk to me. Initially it's still ok but i think i over sensitive but duno :P i dun think it is fair to me...anyway after that, i lots of troubles just flooded my brain :S
mayb it is exam stress ba...i did lots of tut but just think that i still cannot get thru this semester...haiz, am i reach my study limit? i just cannot absorb anymore. am i wasting time and money to carry on pursuing this degree? i just duno...mayb i too tired le. just very stress and moody now :P
i won a bnet game yesterday against a level 39 human. It is a mirror match and phew, i won. That is the only happy thing i guess for this week haha, but come to think of it, it is really nothing to be happy about lol...
i haf not been excercising too...i felt kinda weak :S mayb i shld go take a run tomolo....quizes coming,lab report and project deadline coming~ argh~~ alumni stuffs, life in a mess...
okok, i think i go take a bath then continue my work again hehe....
thanx for reading all my complains :P

take carez~

New Clock :x

2004-09-26T03:30:00.000+08:00

Hiyee~
wahaha, i just leech a clock :P Omg sounds so pirated haha, anyway me and gai is going to watch The Terminal tomolo (Moive hor, not VCD :x) so hope that tomolo will be a nice day~...
Hmm, exam coming soon, the night study scheme started, since the starting of the sem, i saw so many pple studying in ibrary le, like very 夸张 >"< haiz, or am i too nua liao? :P
anyway, no matter wat, exam is still coming! and i better work 200% harder and hope it will be useful -.-"
Warcraft 1.17 is out and well 2 new heros, more bugs are removed hehe. Recently i watched some nice 2v2 replays by sK, mTw and Frenz. Pros are really diff haha, not only their fingers but can see that they really put in lots of effort to win. No wonder they are paid :x
Other than that, nothing really special i suppose...Naruto 102 is out and heard that Naruto Movie is out too :x
Just had a quiz on friday which i din prepare a lot and haiz.....only did the tut but din memorise the formulas so also cannot do...zZz...
Today i fly HeXin kite :( sorry oh...Just got mistaken the timing so cannot make it in time. Also my fault, din ask properly...haiz, sorry sorry if u see my blog

That's all for now ba. Cannot write much now >"<

Sick!!! :S

2004-09-20T03:08:00.000+08:00

wahahaha, hi guys, it's me again..
hmm, term break is finally over and i dun think fully make use of it at all lol...gg-ed
anyway i feeling very heaty now :S omg i think i falling sick...zZz
anyway i drunk honey just now and trying to drink lots of water before the virus pop out >"< hope that i can suppress it.
anyway exam is coming nearer and i still got lots of stuffs that i dun understand...this time chamz liao haiz....i keep reading the notes but still dun understand much of it...how ah??? who can save me~~??? Recently i din do much but to play games, study and eat. Oh ya, i just won a game 2 days ago which i think i am really lucky to win haha...i was losing badly but able to turn the table. Those who haf wc3 can d/l the replay by asking me hehe. I tried to upload it but the stupid yahoo keep telling me invalid filename so cannot do that...haiz.
i feel like working to earn some pocket money but at the same time, afraid that i cannot cope wif my studies. Quite confuse now...anywya i just let things goes as it is ba. For now, i gotta finish 1 more tutorial!!!
kk talk till here okie liao, bye bye loh... hope to hear from u guys soon~

Chinese Garden

2004-09-13T03:12:00.000+08:00

hi!!
just now i went to Chinese Garden wif Ashley, wah the entrance fee is $13/head, so ex >"<
anyway we went to see the lantern exhibition. The lanterns are somehow big lol, and of all characters like 孙悟空, 猪八戒 and many Disney characters. I took a few photos maybe can upload it when i got them hehe.

tired...we walk through the whole garden in about 1 hour time. Maybe i too long din work out le haha, kind of got tired along the way...heng i tahan till i out of the garden lol. :P

hmm, by right, i should be meeting Lishan and Frank der Kah tomolo for M364 project but Miss Pinky cannot make it so gotta postphone it to Tuesday afternoon. Anyway i downloaded the programs i need for the project and i'll start on it asap when i got my mouse. I forgot the 3rd button is needed and i dun haf it! Anyway, i'll get it tomolo...

Eaten my dinner but now very hungry again as usual...no strength to cook le...so i got myself a cup noodles hehe....boiling water now, hope it boil faster else i gona gg... :S

ok lah, i go get some stuffs into my stomach liao, else gastric..seeya guys soon and sleep tite everyone :D

Long Time no Blog Blog :P

2004-09-09T10:03:00.000+08:00

wah wah, it has been a long time since i last blogged lol...I haf been super busy recently >"<
i have lots of quizes this week and a lab report to complete. The unlucky thing is tat my lab report gg-ed when my HDD crashed last wk :S then i haf to re-do eveything! I just registered for my IA too. I haf chosen DSTA haha somehow quite funny. Last time, I alwaz tell myself try not to get jobs that connected to the government as the work-scope will be too systematic and somehow hard to show my creativity. However, there are lots of skill inside that is worth learning thus i decided to try it out. Wonder if i can get in haha. Anyway it's over and now gotta wait and see if they want want to employ me :P
Yesterday is a suay day for Frank der kah and me. Initially, after lesson, i wanted to go and buy text book and LiShan the pro advised us to go NIE as it is cheaper there. So we went there and did wat we need to do. As we are going back to NTU, Frank der kah saw the most pissed off thing he can ever see and it destroyed his day... He didn't eat his lunch even haha.....then i was like telling him wat's the big deal etc. He blamed me for buying the text book hahaha...well, too bad right :P
We planned to start study a little that day so we met in sch in the evening time. Till ard 8.15pm, we decided to take a break and went to the canteen to buy some teh-O and the suay thing happened to me. I saw something unpleasant too hahaha.....it is the same thing Frank der kah seen. He tot i was siao-kian-ing him trying to make him more happy. Wah i was like duh, why he dun believe me -.-"
Anyway, the day is over and here am i a great day ahead :D
WCG just commented recently and sad thing is that i cannot join >"< No time No money $.$
But, i'll sure chk out the updates of the results hehe :P GL HF~

Work Hard~!!!

2004-08-13T04:35:00.000+08:00

ok long time no blog!!!
haha been quite busy, i also duno wat i busy with...now is 4.30am in the morning and i still got tutorial and lecture later....GG!!

kk think i just leave this short msg here, i'll blog when i get free-er~~~

Good day ^.^

School Term Started >"<

2004-07-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

hoho,
school term finally started...5 more months to chiong again, 5 more months of memory work and 5 more months of suffering. I will have to work hard soon. I still haben overload my modules yet. Gotta do it fast >"<>"<

Yesterday went to watch the FIR concert and is like wah how come so many people chionging for it? Heard it can fight with last time Sun Yan Tze one liao. Weizhi go at 9.45am and he din get it! It is the wow wow haha, he was initially behind 30 people so he thought he can get it. But then....at around 11 plus, there are more than 50 people in front of him liao lol. Then the booth only distribute 120 tickets to 60 persons today.Then he never expected to be the 61st! Haha gg!! And i was the 62nd >"<. Anyway it is lucky that i got the tickets hehe. My friends got extra tickets because his friend was unable to make it. So it is still lucky in the end.

Maybe that I cannot appreciate the songs but I just find most of the songs sang yesterday were the same >"< (surely got many people will curse me) Throughout the concert, I just find that their teacher is good, can see that he is very experience. And one bad thing i don't like yesterday or should i say the disappointed part is where FIR ask everyone to stand up on the very first song till then end of the show. I find it quite funny coz we are in an auditorium so we got some nice chairs to sit on. But in the end everyone is standing and blocking the people at the back. Ya, they said that it is for the atmosphere or something but different situation should perform differently. Like if u are performing to the VIPs in a ball room where most people are businessman wearing some nice suits and gowns, are u expecting them to rcok? It is the same for in the audit. I always think that good singers do not need this standing up or cheering stuffs to make them look more pro. They are good means they are good. And one more thing is, since everyone is standing, why no just host the concert somewhere outside in the open area? Then more people can watch and there is no need to queue and waste everyone's time. The organisers also have lesser work to do to set up booth etc. There are crowd control in the audit but i see none did anything. It is some disappointment haha. Much effort but poor presentation of the hard work.

I say liao oso no use...i wonder if people can understand anot. Surely got many people don't agree with wat i said but well, different people have different point of view :) Anyway it is over so just DKDC :P

There is no school today becoz it is the Union Day. I rotted most of the time away and did not really much. I think I go bath now and come back do some stuffs. Else, i'll just rot my time away in front of the monitor again.....

:P

A Blank Day

2004-07-23T05:44:00.000+08:00

Oh it has been erm 4 days before i last blog? LoL, well after that day when i go fetch my ex back at the airport, my mood is not really in a stable mood haha. I have a talk with her 3 days ago at the very first place we 2 had spent together for the first time in our life -- Suntec Sky Garden. Well, that's the first place we been to together and the last place we been to before she went oversea and now it is the first time we met up after she's back and i suppose mayb the last time... The talk went on as I expected, only me was talking and she just remain quiet most of the time. She dun like to talk, she prefer to write so she did wrote to me an email after the meeting. Everything went quite alright, we not intending to patch back but just gotta meet up to clear up the mess and settle everything. My mind is more settled now and gotta get back to my life no matter how :P
**Sorry to those friends that had a hard time with me during these days coz i mood swing frequently**
Should be all for now :) I had slept a lot for today and nothing is really done haha. Tomorrow is the 2nd training in SRJC LD, I do hope that every training can go on smoothly. Think only John and me can make it tomorrow only again :) But nvm, HeXin told me just now that she confirm can go down next friday so at least +1 people next week haha. Suddenly, I just feel tired of doing anything. Wonder if my fire burns out again so easily >"< I hope this will recover asap as sch term is starting soon.....Good luck to me ba :P

Uncomfortable Day...

2004-07-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

I have only 3-4 hours of sleep today >"<>"<

Well, she treated me quite coldly also and it is quite sad. I duno why and duno what she was thinking. Wanted to siam me or just dun bother to talk to me? Haha, anyway i did as i promise before she went oversea that i will welcome her back and i did it. It feels quite great but at the same time, it feels quite hurt. Someone that is so close to me before she left, came back to be such a stranger to me *shrugs* Is this life? haha...

I suddenly just cannot sleep well, cannot eat well and cannot think well, keep having headache but just cannot get my brain to rest. The feeling is not nice and i hope it gets over soon. Maybe is because of the starting of the new sem and alumni stuffs that stress me up. Think i better relax more lol, but there is no time to relax le...haiz,see how ba...

Good luck to me~

1 More Day Gone~

2004-07-16T01:58:00.000+08:00

I just manage to catch the last bus back to hall just now phew...i just bathed and now is playing a little gb game to relax and writing a new blog hehe.

Well, today meeting is as expected and i am really glad at least a few of us can make it. The meeting is quite ok and i got a hard time trying to make my idea clear to HeXin lol. I think we are there trying to make each other understand for 30 mins and i still wondering if she knows wat i am saying haha :P Anyway it's over and we manage to set down wat to teach the fresh bloods during tomorrow training. We also discuss about wat we should buy for the club when we got the budget for the coming year. Oh man, i hope that the school is able to give up some budget though our club is small for now haha!

Oh ya, then i also get to know that John(LD) also play gunbound and warcraft 3!! woot hehe hope he can play wif me more when he get into his hall :P He is a NE user and i just cannot wait to play with new people. Oh well, but school is starting soon and really think gotta get down to work too so i think the chances of playing will be lesser too :(

Anyway, I had my dinner before the meeting which is around 6.30pm and after the meeting which is around 10.15pm, my stomach felt empty again haha and HeXin is hafing gastric so we decided to go eat some 煮炒 just opposite Bras Basar. And i order a plate of 星洲米粉. The sizes are 3,5,7 bux and i ordered a $5 size for my ownself! Haha, i thought that should settle my stomach till tomolo but just now when i got back to hall at ard mid-night, my stomach started grooling again :S oh man then i go boil a packet of instant bee hoon(bee hoon again >"<) to eat. Now quite full but a little scared of it le...For now, i just feel like sleeping~ omg i just doze off haha...
k lah, i better go sleep now >"< niTes~~!

Meeting

2004-07-15T08:03:00.000+08:00

It is raining and really cooling out there lol that i gotta wear my breaker. The long night is lonely and i was watching DBZ anime till ard 7am when my roomie came back. Well,just dun wana disturb him, i stop watching and went to play a game of weiqi on KGS. Then i got bored so go gunbound and now the game was stuck so i was here writing blog :S some kind of luck today haha. I suppose to have a meeting wif my alumni frenz today to discuss about tomolo's training in my SRJC. Though of the busy schedule everyone haf, i really hope that most of them can make it :) Well, we'll see later, hope my wish come true :P
Oh ya, i think i better go grab some sleep else i will doze off during the meeting hehe.

Cya~~

Coming back~~

2004-07-10T20:56:00.000+08:00

yoyo~
wah i finally shifted my room >"< quite a troublesome thing but at least i clear my barang barang and got a new room to start off for the new semester...well, the new room is cooler than my previous one so i consider this is a good sign haha. Hmm, next week, i'll be going back to my JC to conduct the liondance training. Quite excited yet worry coz it has been a long time since i touch any of the equipment haha...oso 2 of my tag team players cannot make it that day too. so it's all by myself again and really i duno how to teach the fresh blood. Scared the training will be too boring if serious and afraid that they'll climb to my head if too friendly.
Other than this, my ex is coming back and i gotta go fetch her as promise before she went off haha. Wonder how will it be like on the very day *shrugs*
In addition, school term starting!! and oh gosh i got a six days week time table, i'll be drowned wif books for the next 6 months
k lah....playing gunbound now....nothing to do, so bored~~

:P

NeW MoNth aHeaD

2004-07-03T07:53:00.000+08:00

it's a new month ahead and it has been sometimes since i last blog...well time passes and it is a brand new month. The old June 2004 is gone and all are past now *shrugs*
Time really passes fast. The is this one important friend of mine has been away to Germany for more than 6 months for now :)
Haha,many things happened and i must say i haf grown a bit again. That's good in some ways but the opp cost mayb a little heavy...Well,i miss her in some ways or another though and hope that she can return safely :) I believe this trip has really enriches her a lot too..

I tried to blog these few days but cannot bring myself to it. Really not in any mood to do anything but i try to tell myself that time dun wait. So i wrote this 1st blog for July.

School re-opening soon, a very tough road is really in front of me. I never felt that before but i'll still try to face it. My Liondance Chapter is giving me headache too. Many stuffs are unfinished and there is nothing i can do now. No where to start wif, no place to get it moving b'coz it is not under my control...

I haf been playing weiqi and keep my brain working and trying to get some flash for this blog's background but still to no success >"< Nvm i'll try again when i can hehe.

I woke up at around 12am today and I am meeting Ashley today...gosh, hope i dun doze off later else will be very impolite :P

k lah, gtg bath liao...cya guys~

Tired, Weak :P

2004-06-26T00:21:00.000+08:00

Hi! I just got back to my hall. Feel so tired and my whole body is aching. I think it is the soccer yesterday morning haha, I really too weak nowadays :P

I am happy yesterday becoz i did many things hehe. Although i had only 3 hours of sleep the night before and i thought i'll cmi but luckily i manage to 'dong' all the way thru :P
I went soccer in the morning at around 9+ and by right i should meet Frank at his hse bus-stop but he told me he cmi coz he gotta settle some stuffs. Well, he told me the directions and ways of getting to the venue coz it is the 1st time i going but i am still blur and lost haha. Then i saw Huai Quan(another ntu classmate) board the bus and is going too so i just follow him hehe so lucky. Then when we reached there, Lionel gimme a stern look and asking me, "boi, u got soccer one meh?" Lol, i think he see me so weak and small tot i never do sports one haha.

Then i played for around 1 hour plus then gotta rush back hall to bath and get down to bugis to meet my 小妹 and Miss K. I tried to rush but i am still late and i was so sad...Heng my sis din scold me. 小妹just back from UK and she's long hair now then i realised how long since i last see her :P But the more stunning one is Miss K haha, she had her hair dyed pink and blonde! and woohoo. Though i expected nothing less from her but she did give me a little shock when i see her haha. Then we had a nice time talking and eating together till night. Really a nice meet up :)

Then i got home just in time to catch Eng vs Por but i am so tired that i dozed off after 60 mins or so when the score is 1:0
When i woke up this morning at around 9am, i am shock that Eng is out lol coz i tot they secure yesterday liao. Such a waste din watch finish yesterday. :(
Anyway, when i woke up, i feel pain all over my body lol so jialatz of me :P then i don't feel like doing anything so i went back to sleep at 10.30am. I forgot that my friend is coming over to my hse today and i overslept! And made my friend waited at my house bus-stop for 2 hours >"< and i was like oh my god, gosh i duno wat am i suppose to do or explain...Sorry!!!
I asked my friend out at around 8.30pm to eat to make up for it but i think i still owe an apology...

Phew, i am so tired now >"< feel like sleeping but gotta bath first.... :S K lah, i shall stop here tonight. hehe *gonez*

New things added

2004-06-23T05:33:00.000+08:00

wee~, i just added some links to my blog again haha, thinking just added something everyday will be good enuf :)
well, i wasted my day today?? i slept most of the time away haha but i haf been dreaming of lots of things...some very unhappy stuffs just keep coming up >"<
when i woke up just now, i feel so tired haha think sleep too much oso tired >"<
then just now i go play some weiqi online which make me more tired now haha...
now watching some andy lau concert while blogging...he sings really well and the songs' writers are all gosu; he even sing some M.Jackson old song haha

I just met up with 1 of my 2 only xiao mei(小妹)2 days ago...she came to boon lay to find me, i so guilty to trouble her all the way to here and i did not haf much time to chat wif her(sorry oh) >"<
hmm, my the other mei(lisa) just got back from US, hoping to meet up with her some day.
oh gosh and i haf not meet up wif my those secondary sch frenz >"<
argh~~so much things to do :S must find time find time!
and i still stuck wif the same background colour >"<
must try to solve it on day hehe

k lah, now nearly 6am liao must go carry on, lots of stuffs to be done!

Run Run RUN~~!!!!

2004-06-22T01:25:00.000+08:00

hmm, another monday >"<
wah my com finally can work le haha, wc3 oso can work le hee, i just realise that it is my monitor hardware problem but is is solved.
hmm, i oso notice i very very very long din go for a run or swim le :S....so lazy!!!
i think i must do some sports again else will grow mould haha, kk i shall do some simple workout tomolo at least!!!
then will start from there. :P
k lah, i stop here first, duno wat to write >"<
busy wif the other webby...still troubled duno wat to do wif it.

*Gonez*

Finally Back~

2004-06-14T04:44:00.000+08:00

oh my god~!~~~~!!! i wrote another 1000 words just now and all lost again!!! argh....so sianz liao dun want to re-type so i just type wat i roughly said >"<

i saying my pc crashed 2 days ago that's why i did not came online and how i go and negotiate wif my dad to allow me to get a new HDD hehe. I talk abt the brand name and a little abt sim lim sq but dun say liao :P

And i said how much trouble for me to try installing win xp into the new HDD but all failed and nearly dmg my new HDD! Then later i gave up and use back my win 98....
At least now my pc can let me blog again so i dun care wat other things might happen before i post this hehe. Later gotta d/l icq and msn and many other stuffs duh......kk i think i go settle the rest of the programs liao hehe.....i'll blog again when my HDD stable in the near future..............

Seeya~

Registration Day

2004-06-11T03:08:00.000+08:00

duh...this is the 2nd time i writing this. Argh~~the first time i wrote till half then my pc hanged!! oh gosh wat a day...

Well i was writing that today is my registration for my year 3 modules day at 11.30am and then i scared i overslept so i din sleep. But till around 10.00am, i dozed off and so lucky that Ashley(my friend) woke me at around 11.15am.(phew~)Then i quickly rushed to the library which is a 10 mins brisk walk and i got the pc there at around 11.28am and finally can 'battle' the thing in time :S

Still okie that i managed to get most of my modules timetable. But the disaster arised when the system stopped me from registering my last 3 modules. It said that i have reached the maximum modules that i can registered for this semester. I went to the main office to check on my application for overloading, and the stupid dean rejected my application! Say that because i failed too many modules and i am under probation. Normal students are allowed to overload 1 module by default at least and becoz of that probation thingy, it say that i cannot even get that overload module! I was like thinking wat sh*t! I failed a few modules and already lag by others liao and now it dun even let me take wat normal students can take which is telling me to go and study one more semester! What rubbish!? argh~ stupid NTU system and stupid adminstration >"<

Now i was gg-ed liao loh. People have their down-turn here and there mah and must give them chance to stand up again leh but this NTU just leave those to die or rot and go jing3 shang4 tian1 hua1 doing all the extra wat help to those they doing well students instead of helping the weaker students. What school is this??! -.-

Anyway I'll just do wat i can do for now ba which is study wat they can give me duh...i wasted 1/2 or 1 more year to learn this lesson and i will not let this mistake happen again! No way i'll let peple look down on me or laugh at me no more!

Another day...

2004-06-09T04:02:00.000+08:00

Today i woke up with a sms in my hp. It's from Gemi(one of my NTU friend). She told me that the law module result is out. I was still in 1/2 sleep mode while i logon to check my result. But my result made me woke up. I failed that module too! oh gosh what is happening to me?! I really hope that I am dreaming...It is another blow to me again omg. This sem is a disaster to me. I have no one to blame though but myself. It is sad to just recover from the blow of other result and here it is, one more blow in the early morning. Hiak, gg-ed! Haiz, actually i cannot imagine myself too for failing so many modules haha. First time in my life! Actually wana write something like i just created the tag board etc but really not much mood le. I duno what should i do... many people console me not to think about it but plan for the future, but my future is in such bad shape. The path is hard and i duno, anyway, i just stay on and see as i go ba. This may be the worst of my life(i hope :P) but i'll keep going. I kept telling myself that so that i can go on.

K lah, i am trying to get my mp3 into wma file so i shall end here~

Getting Up

2004-06-07T07:35:00.000+08:00

Hehe, i saw the comments that some friends have left for me and i am really happy to see that coz i know someone out there is still "watching" over me so that when i fall, he/she will be there to encourage me.

Well, today is a new Monday and i am on a brand new day. I had spaghetti green bean soup yesterday prepare by my kind friend. Thank u! :)

i juz finish watching Naruto 86 although i had it long ago.(no time to watch) One brand new day, one good start. i think i'll start by continue to learn the tutorial for my html thingy and mayb start reading a little lecture notes....

I shall stop here and gl hf to me :P

Disappointment.....

2004-06-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

Today I am going to visit the school dean today. I did not sleep as I scared i wil be late of something. So I manage to keep awake as usual and get an early bath to keep me fresh...
The I printed my audit and planned timetable and prepare to go and decide my fate. Wah, i can't squeeze in all the modules but i still try and my timetable is like a 6 days week from 830am to 530pm.....so chamz...

I was kinda worry that the dean will not care about this and just let me retain 1 more sem...

I follow the address written on the directory and got to his office. I am like quite nervous duno wat to say etc but in the end, i still manage to say everything i want to say. However, sadly, he dun allow me to take too many modules as he said my result is bad and is under probation now.....haiz...gg-ed for me liao. Well, he just told me to register as many subjects as the system allows me to and that's it. He dun want to sign my overloading form...

Then i tell him that i want to clear my course in 4 yrs time but he say there is a very slim chance but well i think oso very hard le...I am quite sad thru out the day actually and feel like quitting school too. It's like i study 4.5yrs and get a stupid bachelor degree but i took an honour degree course. Very stupid right?? I duno but very luan now too.
For the time being i'll just keep on learning my html and webby stuffs. and mayb study a little of the modules that i failed....

ok lah, i think i'll stop here ba...

tiRinG dAe......

2004-06-04T00:52:00.000+08:00

Today i woke up around in the morning and started to plan wat to do for the rest of the days....

Then cook myself something to eat and decided to go down to my mum's shop to see how's the shop is doing at dinner time.

The shop is nice and simple and well selling my favourite "yong tau fu" haha. ok lah, although i din pay but at least got help out hehe...well, sometimes i see my mum keep working and working, at her age, i see liao oso pain coz she is around 55 soon and still haf to work. :(
But she tell me she just cannot stay still at home one. i agree wif this becoz my grandma is oso like that. sort of a workaholic haha so at least din feel that bad. I remember my grandma, who has passed away sometimes ago, she just cannot stay still and relax on the chair. And when we moved to a private housing in Lorong Chuan, she had mothing much to do; cannot go wet market cannot meet up wif old frenz at the void deck etc. Life had become so boring to her and mayb this is the cause of Alzheimer's disease i think.....
So i think i wun stop my mum from opening that shop but instead support her. mayb sometimes i'll just go down help out,but my result is so bad that i gotta start my work soon...
My mum asked me about going down to help but i rejected..i think she still not very clear about my result and i wouldn.t dare to tell her much too....something sad though and i'll just work hard for now ba :P

ok lah, enuf for today....just back to hall,took a cab >"< coz tomolo gotta go see the sch's dean :P argh~~~~

*Ends*

Plan aNd pLan....

2004-05-31T18:16:00.000+08:00

I woke up today and the first thing to do is to plan for my next sem timetable.....

Phew, dao bao so many, wonder if i can squeeze in all. I tried for ard 2 hours then gave up. Always got one stupid module will clash with the rest. Oh, and I am playing weiqi with weizhi now hehe. It has been sometimes I play on KGS liao and so heng my ranking did not drop :P

My mei is taking her exam soon and I wishes her good luck and all the best for the coming exam. Jiayou ok? Then soon can go tour ard the place again lol.

Actually, I planning to go oversea oso but see the result I oso paiseh go. Gotta start study a little bits by bits now.....else will never catch up again :S

ok lah, i go learn some more html stuffs now.

End here.........

Disatrous day of my life

2004-05-28T17:05:00.000+08:00

Well,

My results are out hahahaha and shld say nearly first time in my life i see so many Fs haha. Well, i fling all my core modules and what can be worse? It is the end of 2nd yr and this happened which means i may not be able to finish whole degree in time for the honours and so is a gg-ed to me.

I am sad but i know i deserve it as i think i did not put in enuf effort for this exam. actually i feel more guilty for the time and money my parents spent on me. Nothing much more to say and dun feel like saying anything :)

Time to think what to do for the rest of the time....

A tiRiNg Day....

2004-05-28T00:03:00.000+08:00

Phew, wah i finally can online le.
Hehe, today i went out for nearly the first time wif my frenz today since the holiday started. Everyone is so~~ busy that we manage to get today free to meet up. Well, we intended to catch a movie but when we got to suntec, i am quite guilty to say that 3 out of the 4 shows i haf watched and really left wif no choice wif that boring drama queen show which ends up we giving up the idea of watching any movies :P
So sorry guys.

But we never just rot around. We went to a tea house at Tanjong Pagar to chit-chat and drink tea instead. I played a few chess games wif Weizhi and well, realise that he is talented in it! He even tell me some of the careless mistakes i made. So paiseh haha.

Oso, it is a sad thing that Frank din able to come today coz i informed him the last min. But hor, i tried to contact him but to to avail so bo bian hor, we meet up some other day ba since the holiday still long.

Many pple have taken up part-time hor and like all become so busy and hard to reach. I thought that holiday liao should have more time to meet up wif some old pals etc but like harder now due to the pack working hours. Anyway, I wun give up and will try to contact more of my old buddies out there~~!!

So tired, mayb go and play some games to relax now :P

bOriNg dAy..

2004-05-23T16:43:00.000+08:00

This is my first blog and i really duno how i should start it rolling haha......

I woke up today at around 2pm(piggy) as usual and well, i started my day by staring at the monitor and doing nothing. The day is hot and now i have the fan blowing directly at me to keep myself cool.. :S

School holiday have started but i did not plan to work at all coz i got some other stuffs to do..

One of the more urgent stuff is actually the Liondance workshop in my JC. As most of u guys may not know yet, I am in my JC's alumni and the committee is actually planning a workshop this coming June holiday. We planned and prepare for the upcoming event quite eagarly but i just receive an email recently from the teacher-in-charge(TIC) informing us that the workshop haf to be cancelled due to the pack timetable of the school....

Well, sigh, it is no choice loh coz i know the TIC is trying hard too to get the things going. Well, so i suppose i haf to get the guys to come up wif other things like making a LD magazine or something in the near future. For now, i just haf to find some other things to do :S

Well, that's about all for the first blog :P